Ok. I'm in the mood of 'menyemakkan' Concrete-Lilac.
I'm having trouble adjusting with my horrible swing moods for the past few weeks. It ain't fun no more when you can't even decide what to eat for lunch with this kind of mood I tell ya!! And it's definitely NOT fun when you have all these weird instincts which led you to believe on rubbish thoughts.
I have LOTS of questions to ask him but since my hantu keliwon a.k.a my ego kept psycho-ing me in saying that I will turn to a psycho bitch if I started questioning him, I swallowed my curiosity. Not healthy I know because then, the ugly side of Gayah will start taking charge by giving him attitude like he has done some mistake when it was clearly nothing.
Seriously, what the fuck is happening to me?? It's not that we have signed any agreement on whatever this, this ship. SEE!! I don't even know what to label our ship. Friendship ke, relationship ke, black sheep ke... Haiyoo Gayaaahhhhhhh... awat banyak sangat pikir niiii?!!!!
I know I like his company. And I know he cares for me, in his own strange ways.
He laughs at my stupid jokes. He made me laugh because he's stupid.
Why can't I just be content with this and stop acting like I own him?
I'm having trouble adjusting with my horrible swing moods for the past few weeks. It ain't fun no more when you can't even decide what to eat for lunch with this kind of mood I tell ya!! And it's definitely NOT fun when you have all these weird instincts which led you to believe on rubbish thoughts.
I have LOTS of questions to ask him but since my hantu keliwon a.k.a my ego kept psycho-ing me in saying that I will turn to a psycho bitch if I started questioning him, I swallowed my curiosity. Not healthy I know because then, the ugly side of Gayah will start taking charge by giving him attitude like he has done some mistake when it was clearly nothing.
Seriously, what the fuck is happening to me?? It's not that we have signed any agreement on whatever this, this ship. SEE!! I don't even know what to label our ship. Friendship ke, relationship ke, black sheep ke... Haiyoo Gayaaahhhhhhh... awat banyak sangat pikir niiii?!!!!
I know I like his company. And I know he cares for me, in his own strange ways.
He laughs at my stupid jokes. He made me laugh because he's stupid.
Why can't I just be content with this and stop acting like I own him?
2 orang buang masa di GayahLand:
nobody owns anybody...
but everybody needs somebody to love...
hahaha!
my apologies if i popped up at a bad time. take it easy, will ya?
-acai-
apologies is not accepted because you didnt do anything wrong lah acainess.
you're right tho. nobody owns nobody will be my mantra tonight. its more than enough dah when you feel loved kan.. apa nak own2 pulak. dasar haloba betul!!
thanks!!
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